I woke up this afternoon extremely thankful.
Thankful for being able to wake up in the afternoon and have the rest of the day to myself. Thankful for being able to sleep as late as I want. Thankful for the freedom that I currently have. Thankful for this feeling of life in me. Thankful that God has blessed me with the chance to travel. I am also thankful that turning 23 reminded me of all the beautiful people that have graced my life - colleagues, secondary school friends that I had drifted from, friends that have stuck by, an ever-growing family.
Sometime last year, I think it was when it was nearing the date that would mark my second year of work, it dawned on me that 2 years had passed and I still hadn't figured out my next move. Was I going to study? What was I going to study? When? What about all these travel plans? When was I going to get them done?
It was stressful to have to think about it but it dawned on me that the answers to my questions were not just going to fall onto my lap. I had to get off my ass, find out stuff, think and ultimately decide on something. I spoke to Tony recently and told him how happy I was to finally have some direction in life, and how I felt like the past two years I had just been floating and he commented that I wasn't floating and that I just needed to decide on something. How true, really.
I am glad I took the two years to work and gain experience first before jumping into Uni. Two years ago I wasn't sure about why I wanted to study. I wasn't sure if I was just going through the motions and studying because society said that I needed to. Now though, after these two years, I can justify my reasons for studying and know with confidence that they are my decisions. Back then I just felt so incredibly unsure, even as I was justifying myself, I was doubting myself. But now, I know for sure it is something I want to do and it feels good. I needed those two years and I needed to be jolted by the fact that it had been two years to realize that sometimes answers to your questions aren't just going to fall in front of you - it is a combination of experiences and you need to actively ponder over them, find out stuff and then decide.
After figuring out my next step, I decided to leave my job so that I would be able to start travelling without having to accommodate work. I came up with a To Do list for 2014 and I'm glad to say that I'm already halfway through it.
1, 2, 3 and 6 are done! 4 I'll be experiencing soon and 7, I am working on.
I wanted to do my SEA Overland trip but have decided to postpone it. My Kinabalu trip was in early July and I had initially allocated the rest of the month and August to do SEA before embarking on New Zealand but plans changed! My dad asked me to come along to Maldives with him and my mom and their friends and I just couldn't pass off on the opportunity. The dates for Maldives were in mid August and I would've had to cut my SEA trip down to a month. Other considerations also came into play - would I have the time to plan both SEA and NZ within such a short time frame? Given my rate of procrastination and the fact I would not have ample time to play around with for my SEA trip, I decided to postpone it. The SEA trip had been something I've wanted to do for several years now. If I do it, I want to be able to take my time and not rush or cut corners.
I do sometimes worry that I might not be able to do the trip after graduating from Uni as I'll be in debt and probably broke but the past years have shown that if I set my mind to something, I'll get it done. So fingers crossed, SEA will happen in 2016 instead. Like LW said, there is no need to rush and I don't have to do it all this year. And like someone smart said, "Where there's a will, there's a way.".
So yeah, that's that! I'm currently planning my NZ trip and I hope to start updating this blog with my actual travels soon. Till then, happy travelling and planning!
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