August to December 2016:
These months had me living my travel dream. I started in Vietnam travelling Northward, crossed the border into China where I fell madly in love with rockclimbing, had my trip end prematurely because of Visa problems, returned home in September and decided to go back to China again in October. I then spent almost a month in the south of China, climbing, hiking, travelling alone, meeting locals and other travellers, doing the travelling I've always dreamed of. I met a boy too and thought nothing of it until we met again in Laos. With him I experienced Laos and quite possibly the most intense connection I've ever had with another human being. It was 3 solid weeks of pure travel. He was beautiful, we were beautiful, the experiences were beautiful and life was a different shade of beautiful. I then spent about 5 days heading home overland, zipping through Thailand and Malaysia via its Eastern railway land.
2017:
A huge part of 2017 was spent trying to close the chapter with the boy. We ended it after the trip but started texting each other again in March. The connection still intense and present but there was no intent to take us anywhere. 2017 was emotional. Me trying to take things easy and learning that I couldn't be less or take things chill when I really like someone.
January 2017:
2017 also saw me going to Krabi again to rockclimb. I was still trying to get over the boy and the travelling reminded me of him. But I trudged on and had a great climbing trip, meeting people I'd climb with from China and Laos again.
June 2017:
I planned a trip to Taiwan for the family...an undertaking I am not prepared to do again for it was tiring and uninspiring. I was also an emotional mess and Taiwan's manicured places didn't appeal to me. The bright side of that initially uninspiring trip though was the 5 days I spent alone after the family headed home. It cemented my love of being alone and for the easy travelling of staying and leaving places as you so desired, with no plans or expectations, like China and Laos.
July 2017:
I started work with OBS and dove straight into a 21 day camp. I discovered my willingness to share and be open and vulnerable with people. Learned that it is good to have people too, that despite my love for alone time, the people are important too. During a 3 day 2 night solo camp, I again appreciated my absolute comfort at being alone with me and my thoughts, something not everyone is comfortable with.
The OBS training journey too, stretched me. It pushed me physically like never before and I definitely grew stronger from it. Being a non swimmer to one that was able to do laps is a testament to that.
December 2017:
In December, I decided to check Myanmar off the list. Spent about 9 days there. Yangon - Bagan - Kalaw - Inle - Yangon. It wasn't a mindblowing trip, the boy was still on my mind a lot, but looking back at photos, it was a wonderful experience. The people friendly, the places rustic, the city charming. I thought I got some of my groove back and found my inner peace but alas, texting the boy upon my return proved my thoughts wrong.
I digress. This isn't supposed to be a post about the boy but he was very much intwined in the things I did and in my thoughts so I think it only appropriate I mention him.
Anyhoos, I recently discovered he's dating someone else now which definitely helps with the moving on but sucks too. I think I'm moving past the sadness and just trying to really truly truly let things go now.
March 2018:
That aside, I took my first trip of 2018 last weekend. Tioman with Lynette to get my AOW done. It was a good trip, did things for the first time, had plenty of heart to heart talks with the childhood friend. I love her dearly and I'm So thankful we're still in each other's lives.
The short trip has left me feeling pretty inspired though. I watched Expedition Happiness during it which is possibly the main reason for the inspired feels. I want to get more travels done. Keep trudging on through my emotions and thoughts and see the big picture and find my peace and learn more about myself and this world.
I want to take my parents on trips so Hokkaido is probably happening in October. I'm thinking over the next couple of years, during my time with OBS, these are some trips I would want to do/could potentially take during course breaks:
1) Sri Lanka + Maldives for safaris and diving
2) Hokkaido, Japan with the parents
3) Mongolia, hopefully via the train from China, stay in a yurt for several days
4) Philippines for climbing and diving
5) Hong Kong, visit Sophia, climb and hike
6) Israel if time permits, for climbing and holy historic reasons haha, possibly with the parents too.
7) Australia, to hang with Sherman and rockclimb maybe
The trips may not all happen but it's good to have this excitement to travel again. In trying to adapt to this new job I put all travel plans on hold but I think it's safe to start building those sandcastles in the air now. We'll see how things go.
Life is good. I'll trudge on through and keep living like I always do.